Hello all! This is not an easy announcement to make but it must be done.
When I first started writing this blog, I went into it with pure intentions to fully document my travels and life lessons that were focused on emotional growth. However, right from the get go I struggled to write it.
The first struggle was that, as a writer, I was not comfortable writing in the first person. Initially, I felt this could be a way to challenge myself and improve my writing further. Unfortunately, the entries and echoes posts were not great due to this.
The next struggle was writing about myself. Again, I felt this was another challenge that could help me improve my writing and speaking about myself and be more comfortable with who I am. I wanted to be as open and real as possible, but as I got more into it, I found myself wanting to keep things private.
I wanted to work past these obstacles, but the last four months have changed that. I announced I had surgery back in June, but there have been other incidents that have happened that I do not wish to disclose or document. I know I do not necessarily need to but this blog is meant to be a personal travel diary and I feel it would be against the spirit of that if I did not document it.
So, as hard as it is, I am putting a stop to Wander with Rose blog entries and echoes posts. I hate doing this, but I cannot continue if I feel in constant conflict with myself.
This is not the end, though. I have decided, at some point in the next year, to have a Youtube channel to publish videos of my travels. As well as that, until May 2025, the blog will still be up if you want to read what’s currently there, but after that, it will be taken down.
Thank you to all who followed and supported this blog!
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The storm continued into Tuesday, and we newbie camp workers were prepared for it this time. So the day felt a little less hectic for everyone. For me? The peace of the storm continued to have its effect on me. So much so that I was disappointed when we had to close the door to my group’s bunk – to make sure no more rain could get in.
The only downside to all of this was how soaked my shoes were.
‘Eeewww…’ The bright voice exclaimed as feet swam in my wet shoes. ‘Add that to the list of things we completely dislike.’
‘And borderline hate.’
Once the storm had passed, the rest of the week went relatively smoothly. Work was good, I was good, and everything else was fine. There was a buzz of excitement going around, though, because we were all going to a baseball game this upcoming Saturday that the camp we worked at had paid for.
It would be interesting to experience an American baseball game – or, more specifically, a Mets baseball game.
A few people, including myself, were disappointed not to be going to a Yankees game, but this wasn’t vocalised too much, mainly because we were happy to experience any baseball game.
However, since the game would be later in the evening, I decided to plan out my Saturday and booked a ticket to the 9/11 Memorial Museum.
I had been there once before, the fifteen-year-old Rose exploring New York City with her drama classmates. It was different, though, back then. The memorial was still in the process of being built, and the museum was just a stand-in by that point. It took about half an hour to get through, but that didn’t make it any less powerful.
I was curious about what they’ve done with the museum now. Several people had told me it was beautiful and would take a few hours to get through, so naturally, I needed to see it for myself.
‘Naturally.’ In the back of my mind, I could feel the responsible voice smirking.
***
The week had been an exhaustingly good one. Though, it all came to a halt when I did my neck in.
“Fuck me,” I mumbled under my breath as I followed all the girls back to our destinated bunk.
“Are you okay?” one of the camp workers, Tish, asked me, seeing my struggle as I massaged the back of my shoulder/neck.
“If I ever decide to go down another inflatable slide to entertain a bunch of kids, you have my direct permission to shoot me.”
Tish snorted. “That bad?”
“It wouldn’t be without my previous neck injuries ten months ago.” Tish raised an eyebrow at me, and I went on to give a quick summary. “Whilst on shift at my previous job, my bike slipped on ice, and I sprained my neck. Then, just as I was recovering from that, on shift again two weeks later, my bike peddle snapped off, and I ended up straining my neck.”
“Crap.” Tish’s eyes flashed with concern then as I continued to rub my neck. “You gunna be okay?”
“Fingers crossed.” I presented the words physically, leading to Tish to give a small laugh at. “Though, I really do have the worst luck when it comes to neck injuries.”
‘You have the worst luck when it comes to any injuries.’
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When I returned to the university campus, I learned that some people who went to Philadelphia for the day didn’t get back until midnight or even the early hours of the morning. This meant they’d be hella tired for Monday’s workday.
I’m super-duper glad I went for the weekend now.
When Monday morning rolled around, and we were all gathered under the camp tents for breakfast, I stopped by the few that returned so late and asked them how Philadelphia was for them.
“It was alright.” One of them said.
“Not much to see.” Said another.
My jaw hit the ground so hard that there was probably a dent. “What are you on about? It was amazing!”
It didn’t take me long to figure out and understand that they not only didn’t do half the things I experienced in Philadelphia (which, fair, they were only there for the day), but they probably didn’t have any of the emotional revelations as I did.
(Which, fair, again.)
As we ate breakfast and chatted amongst themselves (me mainly keeping to myself), dark clouds covered the sky above us, getting ready to bombard us with a wet day.
***
What seemed to be a dizzily day turned into a full-on storm. It was a hectic day. Classes cancelled. Children screaming and running through the rain. Soaked shoes. And trying to take control and entertain a large number of bored children. It was seemingly hard to take any enjoyment from today, but that was exactly what I did.
I made jokes with the kids and laughed a little as they screamed when the thunder started. I ran around with them in the hall where we took shelter in. I danced around with them as music played and genuinely enjoyed myself.
Plus, the storm… It was really calming. Soothing. I felt so much more like myself as the storm raged outside.
It was like the physical world was matching my soul. It was wild, loud, and had no care in the world, as it let everyone know of its presence.
Everyone else was seemingly enjoying the storm, too, as all the other internationals messed around while I was at after-care. Some collect the rain in buckets and tip down on each other, and others go to play in the children’s park. One of them hurt their back as they went down the slide.
As lightning and thunder cracked through the sky, I was reminded of the beautiful scene that was presented to me at the Lincoln Memorial, where even the most hectic events made a moment ever more treasured.
Despite all those times I hated the rain when at work back in the UK, the rain here was… freeing. It was comfortable.
Or maybe I was getting comfortable in the skin that was now completely soaked.
This blog is a personal diary, and the content shared here is based on my own experiences, thoughts, and opinions. I am not a professional in any field, and the information provided on this blog is for informational and entertainment purposes only.
I do my best to ensure the accuracy and validity of the content I share, but I cannot guarantee the completeness or timeliness of the information. The content may evolve and change over time as I continue to learn and grow.
Please keep in mind that any advice, tips, or recommendations I provide are based on my personal experiences and should not be considered as professional advice. Before making any decisions or taking actions based on the content of this blog, I recommend consulting with qualified professionals or experts in the relevant field.
I am not responsible for any consequences that may arise from following the information provided on this blog. However, I will do my best to ensure any sensitive topics will be warned prior to each post. Your use of this blog and its content is at your own discretion and risk.
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It took me a good ten minutes to put on the rollerblades, put my items into a locker, and slowly make my way.
Okay, I officially think these rollerblades are a bit too small, I thought as I attempted to wiggle my toes inside them. Despite this, though, I decided against getting a new pair—as I had limited time to do this, and I didn’t want to spend it trying to find the right shoes for this experience.
So, embracing the little bit of foot pain, I made my way onto the rink.
“Bloody hell,” I breathed out, my feet unstable enough that I had to reach and cling to the barriers around the rink. “Okay, maybe this is another thing to put on the list of bad choices.” That fleeting comment seemed to ignite stubborn motivation as I pushed onwards.
I lost count of how many times I fell. Whether backwards on my ass or forwards on my knees, each fall got more and more painful. And in response, I couldn’t stop laughing. And not even in my usual high, uneven pitch. It was a stomach-crunching, bone-wired laughter. Something that was an unstoppable force that couldn’t – and shouldn’t – be contained.
It mirrored something that a younger, naïve and purely gold-haired version of myself held once upon a time.
A laugh that sang of childhood happiness.
‘Up! Up! Up!’ The bright voice vibrated when I fell on my ass once more. ‘UP! UP! UP!’
Continuing to laugh, I managed to pull myself up and rollerblade onwards.
As I began to feel more confident about it, I raised my head more, taking in the scene before me. I saw adults and children within the rink—the children holding more confidence than any of us adults and the adults trying to match that confidence but failing miserably. But there was nothing bad, nothing negative, no cons. It was just… joyfulness—a childlike joyfulness that I had long forgotten what it felt like.
A joyfulness that you didn’t care what people thought about you or how ridiculous you appear. The childhood joyfulness of innocence.
As I stumbled once more, I couldn’t believe where I was—that I was in America, in Philadelphia, rollerblading. All those childhood daydreams that helped me escape the prison of my upbringing suddenly became a reality.
When that realization hit me, it opened the floodgates to all these wavering emotions, and I burst out into more laughter.
‘Knew you could do it!’
***
I spent a bit longer on the rollerblade rink than I should’ve, but it was well worth the hurry afterwards and the already forming bruises.
Despite my extremely limited time, I managed to get food and drink from a nearby Starbucks for the bus journey.
Ten minutes before it’s supposed to take off, it is not even at the station yet.
So, was all the hurry for nothing?
Once the bus arrived and I was able to get on board, I felt a wave of sadness hit me. I had such a good time in Philadelphia that I didn’t want to leave yet. There was so much to still do here as well—the Museum of Art, Rodin Museum… I didn’t have the time to do it all, and the disappointment in that fact was deflating.
Next time.
I smiled at the promise I made as the bus kicked into gear and began its hourly journey to NYC.
***
The journey back to NYC from Philadelphia was a lot less hectic and time-consuming than the journey from Washington, D.C. However, that was surprising because as soon as I hit the streets of NYC from the bus station, it was such a crowded time that it rivalled the Independence Weekend.
It was so busy that I had one anxious thought shouting through my brain.
I’m gunna get robbed.
I probably looked like a madwoman – pretty much sprinting all the way to Grand Central. But the crowds were freaking me out, and I needed to get out of the heart of it. And just like I thought and hoped, the crowds lessened the closer I got to Grand Central.
“Thank god…” I breathed out a few steps into Grand Central, bending slightly and my hands clasped against my knees.
‘On the bright side! You’re now getting so familiar with the New York City streets that you hardly looked at the ever-trusting Google Maps.’
Hurrah for small victories.
***
Despite the fact that it was so busy in the heart of NYC and, thus, would make Grand Central much less busy, I was surprised to find how much less busy it was. Well, it was still busy, but not as busy as the first weekend I came to NYC and certainly not as busy as Times Square.
With this, when I needed to get the train to Pleasantville, I got a slice of pizza and a drink from the canteen area of Grand Central.
As I ate, I was transported to a younger version of myself. Fifteen-year-old Rose, stuffing down a similar slice of pizza, taking in the mass beauty of Grand Central for the first time, and pointing out all the unique elements to Cornelia. Laughing and joking around with other kids as the teachers tried to speed up the eating process.
Smiling uncharacteristically widely, I threw my rubbish in the nearest bin and made my way to the train, which was patiently awaiting all its passengers. Once seated and music blaring in my ears, the train took off for Pleasantville.
